My motivation picture of the day ❤️
What?
Fight for a dream
At first ;
I was at the scale today.
But, I’m pretty sure 90% what I lost is water … Because I haven’t done any workout. Except some situps and walking, around 30minutes everyday.
And my job is busy, so I run from one end to the other end and balance at the time heavy stuff xD
Soooo lets see:
Start: 72.5kg (160lbs)
Current: 71.7kg (158lbs)
Wuheee I lost 800g (ca 2 lbs) xD.
But, I told you above, the most thing I will got lost will be water.
And I realize I didn’t wrote my goal, what I wanna achieve with my healty lifestyle. -The first goal is not be out of breath anymore, if I walk staires (become fit and healthy ^.^)
-The second goal is to lose in a first step till 66kg (145lbs) that I’m not over weight anymore.
-The third goal is to be happy with my self
-And the last goal is finaly reach my dream weight which means: I wanna see a number at the scale under 60kg (132lbs)
Possible, right?
And now to my ‘yesterday-update’
It was the worsed day ever.
Not because I ate unhealthy or over ate.
It’s the opposite.
In the morning I ate some rice with vegetable and meet, and a banana.
My work was sooo busy in the morning, I sweat like a little pig.
But I wasn’t that hungry at lunch, so I ate only a small portion.
And I wasn’t able to eat something for dinner.
…
A bad bad baaad decision.
I was dying. at around 8 p.m my brain was only cotton and my legs are gum.
I wasn’t able to focus. And got really slowly and my reaction time was not there anymore.
I drunk frist a tee only with milk, because I didn’t wanted the sugar. But it not worked. And than a tee with a bit milk and a bit sugar. And slowly it come a bit better, but still bad. Than I got from a co-worker some little sweet thing and that helpt.
I felt my self like someone but something in my ears and but something before my eyes and pushed my brain that I wasn’t able clearly to think or to walk or to speak to people……… Scarry
But really, why the hell my body is so strange if he gets smaller portions to eat? Should I be worried about? Is something wrong, or is it because my body and brain got a loooong time the whole time over sugared things and need to learn again to work normal?
So, a middle day update.
it’s 2:30 p.m
My breakfast was almost the same as yesterday, except no Banana.
and then for lunch I’ve ate again a healthy salat with tofu.
and also a Banana and an orange juice.
I’ve the feeling to eat too less, but I’ll start to work in 2 hours, and I’m pretty sure I’ve will et something there…
I know I should not eat it, but… I’m a weak little girl ;P
I’ll try to do my best not to eat the bad things, only may the vegetable and drink a loooot of water.
to drink is so important, and I drunk so too less since weeks.
so the next goal till next monday is, to drink around 1.5 liter water, and only one coffee a day.
and f*ck off noooo sodas and noooothing with sugar inside!!
I’ll change my eating habits!
thats not a diet, thats a lifestyle change!
and thats why, I’ll change that what I don’t like,
So, I decided to change my hair.
I’ll update tomorrow how it’ll look.
I’m excited, it’s a looong time ago since the last change!! ^^
have a nice day!
Okay, I’m kind of proud of my self!
A small mistake with a chocolate cookie after work, but except that I did a good job!
The most proud thing, I walked direct home and not first in the supermarket!
Soooo I didn’t ate a whole meal befor sleep!!
As dinner (around 5 o'clock) I ate some rice, two different kinds of salat and a meetball.
my day was also kind of healthy…
But… I was at the scale today… And… I gained weight… I have no explenation for that… I ate much less as normal -_-
My day today startet at 5:30 and my breakfast was some rice with fish and vegetables… After that cornflakes, mandarin orange and yogurth.
Don’t ask about that combination xD
It’s a worse combination xD
But I’ll not be able to eat lunch, so the meal need to feed me a long time!!
Have a nice day ^.^
Update-tiiime
Today is day 7! that means my first week comes slowly to an end.
And tomorrow is scale time :3
Face the truth!
I had yesterday the feeling that I ate too much, but now when I re-think, it wasn’t that much.
And I need to remember me, I’m not at a crash-diet. I’m at a lifestyle-change “diet”!
So step by step!
Yesterday, I skiped in a way a meal… i don’t know was it lunch or breakfast… Because I was waking up and right away I startet to write the stuff I needed to do since a week.
After that I ate 2 big bowls rice, one with mayo (I knooow, but after that I trashed the mayo xD) and one with a bit grilled chicken and Salat.
For “dinner” I ate somekind of crakers with fruits inside. The calories wasn’t that high. And a coffe with milk and suger, that my brain keeps going for the time at work.
Aaaaaah I forgot.. before dinner, I bought a sweet little thingy and a matcha-latte… But I regonized what I’m doing, so I drunk only the half cup and I got only one bite from that sweet little thing!
I didn’t ate something at work and after work.
The 3(?) day in a row!!! ^.^
let me stay strong for today!
Today is the first day of the rest of my life
Try Nr. 10’001
;)
In the last past years I eat really unhealthy, and slowly I’m scarred to get maybe sick.
I’m around 7 kilo over wight (I’m 72.5 Kg and 166cm).
That’s not sooo much but still too much.
Its not only the weight I’m a bit worried about, I’m pretty sure, my eating behaviour is also a reason for my bad angriness when something isn’t working and my badmood days and my fucking unhappiness the whole time.
I wanna be that happy girl without a complex about her body.
I have allready enough things to think about.
I wanna change that what I can to get a better live.
And a healthy live.
Maybe I got more energie for everything and it will help me to reach other goals also.
May I have some kind of eating disorder… Because I can’t stop eating.
I don’t know how to explain… If I’m start eating I need more and more and more, neverless I’m allready full…
I know I should not eat and in the sametime I’m eating.
Really bad is it in the evening… If I was a good girl the whole day I break done in the evening and eat…
It doesen’t matter If I ate breakfast and lunch and some dinner… I eat after work everytime too much and too bad things
-_-
I hope I can somehow change my behavior… And be able to change my head…
Maybe that is why I try it this time with a blog.
Because if its not working out it’s more embarassing xD
Good morning
It’s time for my update from yesterday :3
In the morning I ate some rice with a bit green salat and some kind of weird meet… But I’m honest I didn’t ate everything.
Thats why my stomach was a big whole as I went with my friend to the restaurant.
We was at sweets paradise in Shinjuku… Thats mean you can eat for 1hour as much you want pizza, pasta and sweets!
I had two slices of a typical thin japanese pizza and Salat… And a lot of sweets -_-’
You see my journy is still paved with a lot of traps.
Buuuut! I’ve got a big big biiig BUT!
After that I didn’t ate anything! Noooothing, not at work and not after that!
It worked really to say my self ‘Bibi, you don’t need that too be happy!’
I’m hopefully that it workes this time ^^
Wish me luck that I’m able to resist today also all the good food at my work!
Fazit day 1 … It was a solala start.
Breakfast and lunch was perfect and healthy…
But then
I met a lovely friend which had no better idea as but me cookies and icecream in the mouth…
B****
XD
But doesen’t matter… It happens.
We was also out for dinner.
And I need to say I’m so proud of my self. I ate a salat. And noooooo sweets after.
Can you believe that? I didn’t ate dessert!!
I’m huge sweets addict and can barely survive without sweets.
But the real challenge starts today… At work and specially after work.
Wish me luck that I’ll survive without to put everything in my mouth ;)
No comment…
Had a bad habit relaps -_-
And today also… I’ve got a bit an emotional mood…
I ate today some healty stuff like apple and bananas but also bad bad baaad stuff… And yesterday… I don’t wanna speak about that… ^^’
I’ll try do be strong for the rest of the day
Yeah…
Finaly I ate lunch (around 3 o’clock)
But… It wasn’t that healty as I planed…
Ladys, please never go hungry in the supermarket!
So I ate some kind of salat, at this point my brain was still working… But than… I saw the riceballs… And the pizzaman (steamed bun with cheese and tomato inside)
…
I ate from each one…
Thats why I haven’t any idea, was it that bad as I think it was? or was it still “ok”?
I had a good day yesterday!!
Okay, I need to say I slept too long (till2:30pm xD) thats why, maybe, I wasn’t able too eat so much.
But I had a cup of kornflakes with milk, then spagetti with salat and salatsauce aaand a half sweet bread…
At first I had no head as I bought the bread.
What the hell I thought as I bought this over sweet bread?!!
God damit!!
But I ate only the half one.
And because I waked up so late thats all I ate!
Before work I drunk a coffee with milk and suger and thats it.
And … I don’t know how I was able to manage that… it’s the first time since a long time that I didn’t had the feeling that I need to eat.
At work I ate nothing!
And after work I wasn’t going in the supermarket as usual.
Maybeee my brain starts to re-think? Or it was only a special day because my rythm from the day was destroyed?
I don’t know…
Today I’ll meet a friend for dinner.
Wish me luck to be strong!! ^^
